If I kept track of every time I thought about someone…

Saturday August 21, 2021

10:56pm Sitting outside on my “stoop” aka … farmers… porch 🤣😂 – the air changes… the breeze feels stuffy, and all of a sudden it’s not.

I think of you…

I can’t tell you exactly why- it was just like one second you were there, the next you weren’t.

At first an indoor affair came to mind, something that happened in my adult years. Seconds later, a line or 2 into the song, you come to mind. Not the last version of you I saw. The high school, awkward, 8th grade you. Maybe this was a song we listened to together with friends or maybe on one of our blunt cruises..

Next up @ a little past 11pm, still on the same stoop..

I think of you

Not because this song has any consensual significance … but because I’ll never forget you rapping it… https://music.amazon.com/albums/B07V1PSR43?do=play&trackAsin=B07V49TMTN&ref=dm_sh_xxNipT4CFBBOnYFYIt0rHIb8gholy shit… is that The significance??? Is this the same “bands” song from while we were playing drinking games as kids ?

No. I’m wrong.

But at 11:19 …

“ girl run. Run like a track star if mooski ain’t say it better “ – I know booboo , I know coR. & I thank you

Or you’d say something like… ‘ ain’t ni key say it as good as so and so in his last and only hit wonder let me tell you.”

Let me tell you.

A boogie wit a hoodie said it correct when he said “There will never be another you

Always ALWAYS. Mentioning red light special , marvins room, confessions ( let’s say usher period)

“ cuz… let me tell you a little something about MY life a boogie wit a hoodie…

1/4/2021


a peek into the mind of a mental health warrior, recovering addict, alcoholic, daughter, sister, and Mom.

Have kids

it’ll be fun

said no one ever
Advertisements
I'll always love you! | Mommy quotes, Words, Mom quotes

The days have all just ran into each other for the last year. I feel tiered and exhausted and bored and bursting with useless energy. Well, the energy itself is not useless, its what I do , DON’T do, with all that energy that sucks.

A day late and a dollar short. That’s how it usually feels.

Advertisements

I’m bursting with energy though!! I’m trying to find out what to put it towards. I have to stretch it between; my customizing business… the one I still cannot figure out a permanent name to yet *eye roll*, my website & blog, maintaining and cleaning my house, my children… and at the end of the night, when all is quiet… when my husband wants to ‘cuddle’ …. I’m like… nah bro. I’m stretched thin. ( man do I wish that was literal, although, I’d be nonexistent at this point. )

Setting up a professional facebook page for my business, is next to impossible. How am I supposed to concentrate when I have 3 kids on zoom school video calls, and 1 who just wants to play?

I don’t.

I guess I need to learn some planning skills. Map my day out maybe? I’ll look for some free downloads and maybe attach them here if I am able. ( I’ll probably get flagged or charged more money or charged… then lose my site & my pages… that’s my luck!) Wonder if I’ll find a production partner for my business.. or at least someone to take care of my product posting and listings…. probably not though.

I just need some assistance, but I’ll get to where I’m going.

I’m sure of it.

No matter how worried I am about all of it, I am apparently, exactly where I’m supposed to be. * hmmm*

We shall see.

Advertisements

Advertisements